Ray's Thoughts & Musings

yours truly

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This is where I just post general daily logs & things that doesn't really go on any of my pages.

Types of things I blog about:

  • daily life
  • game dev progress
  • achievements (real life & in games)
@gaminglog 31/01/25 | :

Slowly getting back into horror games

Because most people here don't really know me, I do need to mention something – horror is one of my favourite genres ever, a lot of the games I want to write are horror or have some horror elements to them, and some of my comfort media is very horror-adjacent. But lately (past few months) I have been playing & watching media more from other genres (currently watching the Fallout TV show's second season & I want to gush about it on its own page so badly, but in due time) so very suddenly getting the urge to buy & play a bunch of horror games is a nice little change!

I will talk about ALL of the games I got this month, not just the horror games, so it will be under the readmore with very short thoughts.

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  • Princess Maker Refined – I have played Princess Maker 2 & some games inspired by the franchise, but I never played the original that started it all. My biggest gripe so far with this game is that the words are a bit askew when playing on the Steam Deck, making the prologue especially hard to read (I know it's basically the same story every game, but this still bothers me). I might make gaming logs for this game because of how many paths it has!
  • Postal REDUX + Postal: Brain Damage – the original Postal game has some very interesting horror motifs, especially in the loading screens between levels, and obviously I had to get them on sale. And I don't think I need to mention that I've been enjoying Postal 2 lately (considering my blog theme is... just Postal galore) and want to play more games in the franchise (yes, including the third game, I want to analyze it from a game dev perspective). Also I saw Brain Damage has some creepy stuff so I'm excited to delve into it!
  • Catherine Classic – this is a game I watched a lot of playthroughs for as a teen, but because I barely remember the levels themselves I can play this game as if I never seen it before. Also Katherine deserves better, I'll die on that hill!
  • Rusty Lake Paradise – I used to be obsessed with the Rusty Lake games when I was younger, to the point I was following the lore with every new game, but I fell off the wagon several years ago and I want to try and get back into the series. Also the creepy aesthetics are so lovely to look at, especially since the puzzles can be morbid & I live for that shit!
  • Nancy Drew games: Danger on Deception Island, The White Wolf of Icicle Creek & The Secret of Shadow Ranch – I love point-n-click games with puzzles, and the Nancy Drew games were my bread & butter when it came to games where I had to scratch my brain for a bit. I want to re-live my childhood magic, and while I got some of the least creepy games, I remember the puzzles being fantastic in all three of these games so I got them on sale (I also got Danger by Design but it doesn't work on modern devices). I want to make a dedicated page to every single game, but it will take a while to go through all of them with my very large backlog.
  • Cult of the Lamb – this game is what I would call a cutesy horror game, adorable character designs in a messed up setting. I actually already played the game on my Switch, but because I'm becoming a bit obsessed with getting full achievements on Steam, I had to get this game again. I'm ready to put the hours into this bad boy once again!
  • 5D Chess With Multiverse Time Travel – on all levels, this game is definitely a horror game. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to play it and I'm afraid to ask.
  • Iron Lung – the movie based off the game may not be playing anywhere near me, but that just gives me more time to play the actual game before it is digitally released! I'm going into this game fully blind, as I somehow missed watching of the playthroughs of this game when it came out, so hopefully I'll make a decent log about it.
  • Harvester – this game is known for being creepy & violent, and very absurd in the best way possible, but I swear this game is haunting me (so I gotta play it). How, you ask? Because I suddenly remembered that I never added the game to my Steam wishlist while it's full price, and not half an hour later, it's for sale for less than 2$! Spooky as fuck if you ask me.

I also thought that I bought more horror games (my mistake, I have the memory of a goldfish) and I actually bought Mouthwashing and SOMA back in December of last year. But these are the games I got recently, expect me to talk about them sometime soon, if there is a game you want me to talk more about in depth, feel free to add a message in my guestbook!

@discovery 29/01/26 | 10:31

Found a new indie gem – Ersatz!

Found this pilot on YT this morning right after waking up, I adore the dieselpunk aesthetic with the harrowing WWI-inspired storyline. I want to rewatch it a few times before making a page dedicated to it but please watch it:

Also may I remind you that indie projects need financial support, you can get merch for the series HERE!

@dailylife 27/01/26 | 10:19

The Fanfiction Curse is Real!

In a way. So right after I started to really making this website a home, I got severly sick with a viral infection in my throat (suspected culprit: the two people who basically sneezed & coughed in my face during my shift on Saturday the 18th). And while this website is not a place of fanfiction, it is a "fan" project since I'm talking about all of the things that I like, and I write here a lot (so? fan-non-fiction?) which makes it fall under the curse. I think.

The fact of the matter is, my throat still hurts, even after so many doses of antibiotics I still have those weird coughs that just going on and on... and I can't catch my breath, so I'm still out of work which is pretty nice (I need to quit, considering my bosses calling me a liar and thought I was pretending to be sick until I gave them the doctor's notice. I only missed one shift during my employment with them, so they have no reason to think that by the way). I'm going to get my test results today after I post this, so fingers crossed whatever is wrong with me is easy to cure.

@dailylife 18/01/26 | 20:13

Work sucks

I did not hope for my first post here to involve my current job woes, but here goes – I might get fired from my job.

Now hold on, before you say anything, I will admit – I'm not a perfect employee or colleague... but the actual reasons I'm getting fired (I'm saying it like that because my boss only threatened me with unemployment, I'm still legally working there) have nothing to do with what I actually have and have not done.

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To explain everything, I need to explain my job – I'm an escape room operator, which means I'm the person who checks in guests into the escape room & takes payment, explain the story & rules for it, watch them do all of the puzzles and that they don't go above the one hour limit, & then greet them again when they exit & make sure they had fun. And I work in two different rooms, but they're owned basically by the same bosses.

This means my job involves a lot of costumer service, involving small groups in closed spaces. While not as stressful as most jobs where you have to deal with people, you still need to be the best host possible because people come here to enjoy themselves. My two bosses think my brain is too small to get that, which leads me to the first point:

I've had complaints from customers – and that's a given, not everyone is going to like you, that's just how people are. But the first case involved someone SHOVING A CAMERA IN MY FACE FUCKING FILMING ME and got offended when I told them to stop. I still tried to be as civil as possible, but the customer lied about me to my boss (let's call her 🛎) and said I was rude & that their holiday was ruined (they were really happy clams at the end of the game, and even thanked me in person for 'fixing things'... gosh I hate people like that). Of course my dumb bitch of a boss sided with the customer! Because why would the customer lie? 🥺 Oh, but she's too lazy to check the mics & cameras, or my friend who was visiting me at work who was a witness to how this customer berated me to tears. But nope, I got a shitty phone call from 🛎 that made me want to quit the place.

Another customer complaint was the fact that I 'took them out of the room too early in the middle of the game' – the group were shitfaced drunk and didn't realize they finished all of the riddles. I wish I was joking. (not to mention they actually vandalized the last room, but who caaaares) They complained in their review, and of course, my other boss (let's call him ⚡) told me how that's not okay, and also said I was lying when I tried to explain my side.

The last customer complaint happened yesterday, and I'm not gonna lie, I am to blame for what happened. The group consisted of a mum, an auntie & and a little girl (the mum said she was eight years old but she looked no older than five) came to the more family friendly room I operate. I tried my best to make the room as accessible for the child as possible, as I always do when I got kids with their family (less loud noises, make sure the room is on easy mode, stuff like that). But this little girl was the type of kid that constantly needs attention and never was told 'no' in her life, so the entire time she's in the room she makes sure both adults watch her when she does silly things and would even pull physically from doing the actual riddles if they didn't do what she told them to do (which was either watch her dance or play with something in the room). Which is a cute thing kids do, I get that, but there is a time limit on how long you may be in the room; and that means that by the time the hour passed, they weren't even halfthrough the riddles on the easiest difficulty possible. So I did what I was taught when I was studying under one of my coworkers, and I told them that because the hour passed and there are guests right after them, that I unfortunately have to let them out (mind you, the whole days was BOOKED & I was pulling a double shift at this point because my coworker's cat had to go to the vet (very valid reason, I would never tell a pet owner to come to work when something happens to their baby).Obviously, they were upset and I tried to comfort the girl and let them have the snacks from the last room & take commemerative photos, but it legit seems like this girl learned for the first time that not everything is gonna go her way, which I really think sets her up to failure but it's not my place to tell parents that they have no idea how to raise their kid.

But when the customer called to tell my boss that, obviously she had to make it seem like I was crass (I heard part of that call, ⚡ doesn't know I was on the line for a bit) & was mean to her child, and that I done nothing to make the event better. Again, this can be checked by looking at the cameras and listening to mics, but we have established that my bosses don't care about the truth - they need a powertrip or two. But here were my boss was right – I shouldn't have let them out of the room as soon as the hour passed, and asked me why the hell I've done it without calling him first. I explained to him what I told you, dear reader, that that's what I was taught – and again, he called me a liar (without actually checking with the person who taught me that - curious!).

After that chat, he sent me a semi-official message where he noted a few things, let's go over them quick: that I have trouble being with customers (I mostly have raving 5 star reviews on the website, but sure), that I don't tell guests that I can make them extra snacks (??? yeah because they usually don't finish the first portion, 90% of the trash's weight in the end of the day is discarded popcorn no one ate), that I don't enlighten guests on riddles they didn't understand at the end of the game (I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THE RIDDLES AT THE END OF THE GAME SOME PEOPLE CAN'T MAKE ME SHUT UP - LEGIT PULLING SHIT OUT OF YOUR ASS), and that I don't wear the uniform jacket (I'm sorry, the uniform jacket? The one you never washed and gave me an allergic reaction, that jacket? Also I explained to him WHY I don't wear that, and he still haven't washed that by the by).

But hey, if I get fired – I'm gonna get reimbursement~! B)